On a more personal note…
I figured I post this here rather than on facebook…since noone really knows me here anyways, or won´t care.
The past few months have felt like one long acting class lesson. Rollercoaster of emotions, all kinds of situations you´re thrown into and have to come up with the fitting reaction, even if you don´t even know what you´re doing. And that´s the point, I don´t know what I´m doing. I´ve literally become this fragile little thing…
And, as dumb as it sounds, not even the sunshine and the great warm weather can make me feel better. I guess nobody will be able to relate to that, but that usually was what brought me at least through the summer, I called it my “saviour for summer”. Silly!
I just won´t admit to myself that I have a serious problem, that I´m suffering from depression.
I still have no one to talk to… sometimes it´d be nice to have an actual real-life friend where I live. But I guess I´d just feel like a burden and keep my mouth shut anyways.
Haven´t been productive in so long. Haven´t been able to write (anything) in so long. Haven´t even been reading for months. And the words and the pictures and the emotions are hurting the insides of my head, cause they want to be processed.
Yeah, well….guess I´m done, for now
I can not take this fuckery anymore… I don´t even have words…I can´t talk to anyone…cause I wouldn´t even know how to explain myself…I could just cry…but I don´t want to seem so fucking weak
I can´t stop mourning, and I´m at the point where I want to shave my whole fucking head and start cutting myself again eventhough I know it´s stupid and won´t make me feel better but distract myself…
I feel like ranting and whining and just screaming what the fuck…
I feel like an ungrateful little child, stomping her foot on the ground cause she didn´t get what she wanted.
-I just erased the rest of this post, it would´ve been too much of a bitch post-
I want to scream, I wanna run.
I can´t scratch it away.
Someone take this from me, please!?
so I was going to buy poptarts today because I´ve always wanted to try them. But well, no, they are not vegetarian. Why? same thing with twinkies, I saw that after tasting one, I do not miss out on much though X)
luna-skylar replied to your post: so I was going to buy poptarts today because I´ve always wanted to try them. But well, no, they are not vegetarian. Why? same thing with twinkies, I saw that after tasting one, I do not miss out on much though X)Huh? How is there MEAT in candy? Or is there gelatine in it?
gelatine in poptarts and beef fat in twinkies (there ight be more, I didn´t read all the ingridients)
O.O never knew this!